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Salam alaik,
k I know that I've been neglecting this bored blog but hey what to expect? She only writes when she's bored :P

So last week is my bro's birthday and I didn't get a chance to wish him publicly :P so yeah what a way to wish him here I guess. Plus he should be happy he get a chance to be featured in my blog :P

So Ammar's turned 20 on 18th January so there's not much *ehem yeke* so to Ammar,I'll be sending you visual picture that describe what I want to say to you k :D.

Being 18 was the most difficult phase I've ever been. Sometimes,I would listen to some kpop song and sometimes I prefer some indie band over a loud beats.

I also struggle with finding and searching the meaning of true happiness. I mean,what's the point of being rich and fab if you didn't find what you're looking for. And that's: true happiness.

At first,I thought being happy requires me to have a lots of friends. Suddenly I realized,then I must be unhappy because I don't have a large group of friends. But I thought to myself " But I feel full and not empty,why? I don't have lots of friends though "hmmm....

This is  when I start to find happiness in friend. I think that if I don't talk to friend at least once a day,I am not happy. I start defining my own happiness based on my relationship with friends.

And that's the worst mistake I've ever done in my 18 ( or maybe in my teen days )

But yeah, I started to get back on my track,knowing what's my purpose of life and happiness. In the end,I found what I want. Alhamdulillah *praise be to Allah*. Although I'm not fully feel full or idk,okay? ,at least I feel some kind of idk calm and yeah, I am myself again.

You know,you started to be yourself when you didn't depend on others for your happiness. And that's what I mostly do to myself right now and hopefully in my next life too * if there is a next life :P *.

I hang out less with people,and more with camera. I take joy in every time I click that shutter,and feel that kind of awesomeness and cool when my picture turns out to be better (?) and good  and if it's not, I'll come back again and again to try to take that shots until I feel like " Yesss I got this shot".

I feel joy when people comment and also critique my photos. I feel thrill when I'm thinking that I'm gonna be on the next adventure. I feel...ME (?).

So for the one who's still searching for happiness or something similar, find it in yourself. Search for it deeply and yes, ask HIM. Ask Allah for eternal happiness. Because that's what we as a muslim need to have . ETERNAL HAPPINESS.

Some scholar said " If you want eternal happiness,you also must be strong to face some tribulation,sweat,blood or even tears." and I hope you guys can face all of those tribulations,problems and possibly your fear into finding your happiness.

I may found mine,but I know it's not temporary. Although it's not,at least I found reasons to live,or reasons to be happy. Which is to be grateful for small things that happen :).

So yeah,that's it. I hope that the people who'll be watching this would found what you're looking for. Although it might takes some time,but please don't feel despair . For we belong to Him and to Him we will return.

HanHanan
I may not be the happiest person you've ever known but still,I'm grateful for small things that He give :)

Kau tahu kawan,aku rasa dunia ini lucu. Lucu dengan kebodohan manusia, ketamakan dan kerasukan ,kebiadapan serta keangkuhan. LUCU sekali 

Terkadang aku melihat pada skala yang lebih besar padahal jawapanya mudah dan simple :). Mungkin ada perkara aku harus berehat sebentar dan pandang ke bawah. Kerna terkadang jawapan itu hanya berada dekat padaku,tetapi atas kesedaran aku untuk melihat atau tidak.

Untuk lelaki itu, ini hanya pendapat aku bahawa aku tidak merasakan kau seorang yang pemalu :). Terserah untuk menerima atau tidak.

Kerana akhirnya, kau-kau,aku-aku :).

Dan tahniah kerana membuat seorang hanhanan berfikir . Jarang ada orang boleh buat aku berfikir sedalam ini :).

dan ya,apa pendapat aku tentang lelaki pemalu? Well,hmmm

Lelaki pemalu itu seperti kamu,ya kamu yang teramat malu untuk mengakui diri kamu itu seorang yang pemalu. Yang malu denganNya. Menjaga dirimu denganNya agar kamu tidak akan malu kelak di sana :).

Okay, post aku kali ni agak a bit idk, tapi aku perasan yang aku guna almost 98% bahasa haha. Maybe sebab aku rasa post ni sesuai aku bahaskan dalam bahasa melayu :)..

Apapun,terima kasih kerana membaca. Moga kita boleh menjadi seorang yang pemalu. Pemalu bertempat :D

HanHanan
she talks a lot ehhh

Hey guys and Assalamualaikum !. It's been quite awhile since I talk with you guys. Hey don't blame me, I'm not that bored. Read the caption k :P.

So baru je satni,ehh yesterday I visited the factory for photography purpose. Just to inform you guys, I'm an amateur photographer and I like to take photos when I'm bored ( besides than writing ).

So malay/english? k fine I do both.

Before I went to take photos, I did came on Sunday to inform the owner ( or we call tokey ) Mr Tan that I will be visiting the factory for photography purpose. At first he said that the match's machine is currently not functioning. Well that was one damn sad news.

Eh ehh ... sabar dulu k.

The day before yesterday,he informed me that the machine had been repaired. Oh yeahh that's what I wanna hear guys . So I set the date and so on and yeah yesterday,  I went there...ALONE ( like usual lah ).

I arrived there quite late, at 10.30 am ( blame the traffic guys ) and Mr Tan introduced me to Encik Mahmood,the one who will be explaining stuffs and be my 'tour' guide inside the factory.